PART 2

Step 2: 

Don’t you feel incapable – The Spirit, who convicts us of sin, justice, and judgment, directed me to make some decisions: Firstly, I made a promise that I would only have sexual relations with my husband, and that I would never casually have relationships with anyone again. Days later, on the day of my baptism, my father spoke very harsh words against me, and this made me very sad, very angry. However, my sister who lived with me, advised me that I, as a person now baptized, should forgive him and not participate in the Holy Supper without first having reconciled.  

At this point I didn’t have the courage to do this on the same day. But as God is good, in Sunday School, there was talk of forgiveness and I returned home impacted and decided. I prayed and looked for my father. I released forgiveness to him for each insult the day before and several others from the past and I also asked for forgiveness for the harsh words and for having been such a disobedient daughter all those years. He cried and so did I. He asked me for forgiveness and I released it. Our relationship at home changed from then on, almost from water to wine, and the arguments decreased drastically, we started to get along very well. It was a very good period, I loved coming home and being with them: just the three of us. 

It was then that, at the end of October of that same year, my father died and I saw that I had not had the time I wanted to have to learn to love him, give him honor, respect him. I didn’t have time to get to know who he was and get to know me. He was simply gone. And as if it couldn’t get any worse, three months later my mother, who I thought was eternal, left too, leaving me a huge void for the lack of them. Right when love was happening, I fell in love with them, they both left and I felt lost. 

God is good. In 2015, by that time I was unemployed for a month. And guess what was the opportunity that came to me? Teaching. 

Step 3:  

believe and live thy commission – Against all odds, that which I had run away from for so long, was what would sustain me, it was all or nothing. Well, I put my feet in the classroom for the first time and I asked myself: how could I stay away from here for so long? This is my place. 

Step 4:  

rejoice in Christ – It was there the beginning of the discovery of my purpose in life. I teach, I’m good at it. But in the end I denied it for a long time, I really refused, I silenced my dream, I got lost in the process. It took a lot of suffering for me to return and, today, “the hammer hits the nail”, I did what I was born to do. Regardless of the circumstances, to obey and rejoice is not to sin. 

Finally, have you disobeyed God, your parents, the purpose for which you were created? There is still time to return! And also there is still a solution! Not to mention that there are promises for those who obey: 

“I swear by myself,” declares the Lord, “that because I have done what you have done, not denying me your son, your only son, I am sure that I will bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand by the sea. Your descendants will conquer the cities of your enemies, and through them all the nations of the earth will be blessed, because you have obeyed me. (Genesis 22:16-18) 

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